I ♥ Spongebob Squarepants! :D

Why? Because the characters are so funny :D I like Squidward's sarcasm, Spongebob's innocence and Patrick's 'lambat pick up'-ness. Back home, my younger siblings would always inform me when Spongebob is on. "Sut! Spongebob! Come and watch!" (I miss this *sniffle*) and then there are so many things that I learnt from the show. For instance,

Love is handing someone a gun letting it point to your head, believing he won't pull the trigger.

No one can change a person, but someone can be a person's reason to change.

I will be updating this entry regularly :) Regularly as in every time I find a beautiful quote or anything else that I find cute :) 

♥♥♥

p/s: yea, I watch cartoons. Deal with it. 

I just finished doing some catching up and re-organizing my notes. All that work made me want to blog. I wan to continue blogging about my family members but the internet's kinda slow. So it will take ages to load -___-" So I decided to answer questions before I enter la la land.


ok, start with the basics, whats your name: 
Lady Elisa daughter of Lord Samuel III :D
age: 20 going on 21
gender: fairy princess
shoe size:4-5
height:155 cm. yea, i'm pocket size :D
eye colour:dark brown
hair colour:dark brown


ok these ones are all your favourite things, starting with colour: blue! weee~
food: edible stuff :D 
hair style:daangeroouusly straight (sounds like something I got from a shampoo bottle) I find straight hair oh-so-elegant :D
jelly bean flavour:doesn't matter :)
website (don't suck up to this one, be honest):does Facebook qualify?
number:1, 2 and 7. 
item on clothing (descriptions are better than just 'my T-shirt'): so many la. (dark sexy denims/cute shirts/dresses that feels like 'summer') :D 


moving on again now, pepsi or coke:coke
chocolate or vanilla:if you're talking about icecream flavours, then it'd be vanilla
tv or books:depends. i'm more to a book person though. yea, go on and imagine me with bucktooth, thick glasses and a hunchback XD
staying in or going out: depends :) i'm outdoorsy though
friends or family:both
myspace or facebook:don't have a myspace acc. so, Facebook :)
nail polish or natural (guys just say if you like girls to wear it or not):
depends :)
art or sports:depends. i enjoy literature but i like being outdoors
past or future:future X)
left or right:right?
odd socks or matching ones:my socks match. but wearing mismatched ones are cute, i think? maybe? oh, scratch that.
tea, coffee or neither:my head doesn't tolerate coffee very well, so tea :)
hot or cold:cold?
fly or fall:fly baby, fly
run or ride:ride I guess.
sing or scream:sing
watch or join in:join in
dance or laugh:laughing while dancing


just pick one now, continent:asia? haha
type of sweet: sugus? XD
girls name: marion letithia (meaning Mary's Joy)/immaculate corazon (meaning Immaculate Heart) planning on naming my daughter(s) this :D
boys name:Chris Xavier (sounds like Christ Saviour) reserved for my son. XD
fizzy drink:isotonic drink


what makes you? happy:lots of stuff :)
sad:sad endings. sufferings.
giggley:being with the people whom I crush on. hoho
obnoxious:confronting with people more obnoxious than me
sleepy:learning biased history
hungry:food? haha!
empty:failures. unstable emotions. heartaches.
cold:low temperatures? haha! :D
bouncy:excitement. joy :D
mature:being with my younger siblings. military camp (never again -__-")
immature:being with my family
loud:being me :D Dad says I'm too noisy. guess where I got the noisy gene from?
shy:meeting new people


next, describe your dream person starting with gender:male
eye colour:doesn't matter
height:taller than me? (easily fulfilled, I know)
hair colour:pink! haha. but seriously, natural.
smart or sassy:smart :)
droop dead gorgeous or stomach crampingly funny:eye-watering-jaw-jamming-stomach-crampingly funny :D
give three other qualities they would need:strong similar religious beliefs, intact moral values, same brain wavelength


are you single:double :D
do you drink:depends. seldomly nowadays.
what do you think about smokers, or say if you do:(ugh. I don't smoke) this is what I usually think when I encouter one, "stay away from my oxygen!"
ever punched someone:oh yeah 
if yes did they deserve it, if no say rar: yes :D
what word or phrase do you use wayy too much: 'haha', 'sya rasa', 'kali la','ba' 
got a mobile?:yeps. gotta have one to survive nowadays
if yes what make if no say meh:sony erricsson & nokia
tell me something no one knows about you (dont worry i probably dont know you):ever walked 40km in one day :D  
what job do you have:quiz and test solver
what job do you want:food taster
where are you:in front of my laptop
wearing any jewellery (say what):silver ring and chain necklace
did you right 'what' in that last box because you arnt wearing any:no
be honest, did you change what you put in that box when you saw the next question:no
which part of your body hurt last:my right knee. boohoohoo!
do you know why:probably just to irritate me
would you kill someone to save someone you truly love:um..I don't know. 
are you spontaneous?:sometimes. I try to suppress it to avoid fights with any i-hate-out-of-the-plan-agendas kind of people
if you had a choice how would you want to die:with nothing to regret, everything said & done and surrounded by the people who matters 
what would you want on your gave:my name? haha! i want mom's fave flowers planted on my grave. mesti subur tu :D
what would your last words be:ba, palan-palan kamu, Jesus panggil sudah. see you later :) 
if you could hug anyone right now who would it be:my baby sis :( 
are you alergic to anything:oh yeah. highly allergic to bullshit. (jawapan common. boo me)
where would you take someone, on a first date:picnic on hilltop, watching sunrise. (mesti ada pau sasau)
to break up:i'm a right-here-right-now person. but i'd go somewhere private, so that they can cry/scream/karate me.
to propose:emm, never thought of proposing but if i had to, I'd do it somewhere where it's meaningful to the both of us. kalau mo style berani mati, i'd do it in front of his entire family.
to apologise:i'm a right-here-right-now person
to say 'i love you':i'm a right-here-right-now person. i'll say it when I mean it
if you had three wishes what would you wish for? (in the next three boxes):to be able to see God's face in the face of the people i hate dislike
wish 2:for Chong Wei to know I exist :D
wish 3:endless wishes so that I can fix the world


if you could do one thing for the world what would it be (ANYTHING):love :)
when have you been the happiest so far in your life:emm, no particular memory
when do you think you will be that happy again:happy is a choice, sweetheart. it can be any day :)
when will you be happier:bila-bila ja ko mo ba
anything you want me to know:this quiz is fishing long
why did you take this quiz:'cause I was bored, you made me sleepy now *yawn*
how long did this take you:o lama gila. like, FOREVER
would you do it again if you knew how long it was:maybe
do i sound like a nice person:sure, whatever makes you sleep at night
can i have a hug:do you have any contagious skin disease? 
say something to make me think:nah, the all time favourite question. why did the chicken cross the road? :D


Night guys. Mengantuk gila suda.

This Is To All The Silent Lovers Out There

kesian o.. it must hurt lots

Yea, I know I sound jiwang-ish. But this post here, goes out to all the people out there who's in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way. 

Why the sudden thought of them?

You see, I've been observing these two people for quite some time. They're close friends. That's what they say. But I know, the guy wants to be more than friends. I don't know about the girl though. Hurmm. I'm not close to them though, setakat kenal-kenal ja la.

It's very obvious that he really likes the girl. He might actually love her even. Yea, I'm a weirdo who sits around and observes people. I don't know, I just like to go deeper than the obvious in everything. 

Anyway, the girl is in a relationship with someone else though. And I know it pains him so much that I bet he might cry himself to sleep at night every time he thinks about how great they could be together. But there's this joy in his eyes every time he meets her, that keeps him alive. I see joy in his eyes when she talks to him, share stories with him. Maybe somehow though he knows that she might not feel the same way about him, the fact that she's smiling at him is enough.

*sigh* Maybe they're better off as friends. I don't know. 

I don't even know why I'm writing this I've been watching and I think the dude's good for her. I think he's everything that a girl could've wished for. And from the way he looks at her, obviously she's everything that he wants in a girl.

Oh well, who am I to say these things kan? This post won't even make a difference. 

But I've got to say this because my finger itches. And because I see the dude's pain. Haih, hang in there seja la bro.

   

Solution #1

The dude says what he really feels. Who knows whether all this while she's been feeling the same way too, just that she thought he wasn't into her. Happy ending :) But if she doesn't feel the same way, then it might be bubbye to their friendship. Ngehh. Not good, not good.

Solution #2

The dude keeps what he's supposed to say and moves on. No risks taken but he'll live with 'what if..' la. But friendship stays intact.

Conclusion: Playing Dr. Love is hard because matters of the heart are complicated :/

Maybe the problem is that he found the right one at the wrong time. Speaking of which, go see the vid for Pixie Lott's Broken Arrow. I'm liking it big time, baybeh :D

Hnnh. I really wish them both a fairy-tale ending whether they're together or not.

'Banyak lagi ikan di laut'. I won't ever understand how this makes anyone feel better.           -___-" 

Well sometimes you can just stand there outside the lines, loving them ba. Maybe one day, she'll see how much you love her. If she's really all that, then she's worth the wait ba kan.

It's back to assignments for me :/ Hnnh. Then maybe a good night's sleep. That's a happy ending for me :D

Yesterday I went to visit little kiddies (I forgot the name of the place..haha) But due to some misunderstanding, the person in-charge of that place wasn't informed. In the end, we not only played with the kids, we also had the chance to meet the grandpa and grandma at the old folks home :D Sya ada kawan dari golongan warga emas! X)  And I found a really cool wording there.

I know, right? Smart ni ayat dia. Reflect on your own la ho. Things are not always what it seems.

And I was surfing ba tadi kan, and then I found a very touching poem. Read it, it's worth it. Certified by the government of Samuel E., E.

Her hair was up in a ponytail
       Her favourite dress tied with a bow
       Today was Daddy's Day at school
       And she couldn't wait to go


But her mommy tried to tell her
       That she should probably stay at home
       Why the kids might not understand
       If she went to school alone


But she was not afraid
       She knew just what to say
       What to tell her classmates
       Of why he wasn't there today


But still her mother worried,
       For her to face this day alone.
       And that was why once again
       She tried to keep her daughter home


But the little girl went to school,
       Eager to tell them all.
       About a dad she never see
       A dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,
       For everyone to meet.
       Children squirming impatiently,
       Anxious in their seats.
     
One by one the teacher called,
       A student from the class.
       To introduce their daddy,
       As seconds slowly passed.
     
At last the teacher called her name,
       Every child turned to stare.
       Each of them was searching,
       For a man who wasn't there.
     
"Where's her daddy at?"
       She heard a boy call out.
       "She probably doesn't have one,"
       Another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,
       She heard a daddy say,
       "Looks like another deadbeat dad,
       Too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,
       As she smiled up at her Mom.
       And looked back at her teacher,
       Who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,
       Slowly she began to speak.
       And out from the mouth of a child,
       Came words incredibly unique.      

"My Daddy couldn't be here,
       Because he lives so far away.
       But I know he wishes he could be,
       Since this is such a special day.
     
And though you cannot meet him,
       I wanted you to know.
       All about my daddy,
       And how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories
       He taught me to ride my bike.
       He surprised me with pink roses,
       And taught me to fly a kite.
     
We used to share fudge sundaes,
       And ice cream in a cone.
       And though you cannot see him,
       I'm not standing here alone.

"Cause my daddy's always with me,
       Even though we are apart
       I know because he told me,
       He'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up,
       And lay across her chest.
       Feeling her own heartbeat,
       Beneath her favorite dress.
     
And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
       Her mother stood in tears.
       Proudly watching her daughter,
       Who was wise beyond her years.
     
For she stood up for the love
       Of a man not in her life.
       Doing what was best for her,
       Doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,
       Staring straight into the crowd.
       She finished with a voice so soft,
       But its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,
       He's my shining star.
       And if he could, he'd be here,
       But heaven's just too far.

You see he was a fireman
       And died just this past year
       When airplanes hit the towers
       And taught Americans to fear.
     
But sometimes when I close my eyes,
       It's like he never went away.
       And then she closed her eyes,
       And saw him there that day.
     
And to her mother's amazement,
       She witnessed with surprise.
       A room full of daddies and children,
       All starting to close their eyes.
     
Who knows what they saw before them,
       Who knows what they felt inside.
       Perhaps for merely a second,
       They saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"
       To the silence she called out.
       And what happened next made believers,
       Of those once filled with doubt.
     
Not one in that room could explain it,
       For each of their eyes had been closed.
       But there on the desk beside her,
       Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
     
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,
       By the love of her shining bright star.
       And given the gift of believing,
       That heaven is never too far

Okeh, siapa menangis sila angkat tangan. Jangan malu-malu because I cried too. :'( Kesian dia. 

It made me thank God that both my parents are still around. I don't think I have the strength to go on without them like this little girl. 

Marie Anne :)

Nah, as promised I am blogging about my family members :) 

This is my Fluffy Monster. And no, I am not talking about the cat. As you can see, my baby sis really likes cats. Actually she likes all types of animals. Wait, scratch that. She likes MOST animals. 

People say that she really looks like me. Hoho! Whenever people say that, Cheli would go bonkers. Because she demands that Fluffy looks like her (padahal ndada pun) XD. 

As you may have guessed, she's the youngest - the baby of the family :) 

There's so much that I want to write about her. There's just so much to tell. I don't know where to start. 

O I know, let me start on the day she was born. On the day she was born, I was attending a military style camp at a school nearby (ruma sya dekat skul). Anyway, I told my parents to let me know if its time, no matter what time. And at that time, sya belum dibenarkan ada handphone (family rules). So around 6am my sister called the officer in charge. And he told me la. Apa lagi, lari terus! Bengong2 lagi time tu because during the camp, perkara biasa la tidak tidur for a few days. Luckily that night sya ada tidur around 1 jam. 

Nasib sya sempat pulang o. The distance between the school and my house is about 500m kali. Laju gila sya lari. First time, I've been around when my siblings were born. Scary juga la, pucat ni Mommy sya. Takut sya. Yaii. 

So anyway, kami (Oja and I) nda kena benar masuk emergency room. Fine. Daddy ja kena benar. Bakal2 husband yang sedang baca ni, make sure you're around during each check-up and especially when your wife is giving birth. So we waited, buli2 lagi sya tertidur. Baby masih 'di atas'. Meaning, belum mo keluar, tapi mesti keluar. Scary o. But when I heard Marie Anne's cry, lari trus pi depan pintu. Mesti tu nurse terkejut, tiba2 ada muka di pintu. Haha!

I was the 2nd person to hold A'anne :) (Daddy 1st, nurse and doctor nda kira). She smelt like blood. And as a matter of fact dia memang slightly bloodish at that time. Oja said she smells like fish :D 

Oh I don't know if there is anything more beautiful than the sight of a newborn baby. Mommy looked so tired but very happy. As a matter of fact, she was born a day before my 16th birthday. Grand gila kan birthday sya. Orang lain dapat party on their 16th birthday, sya dapat adik :D Nehh. Jangan jeles.

And now, that little bunch of warmth and joy would be turning 5 this year. Oh cepatnya masa. It seems just like yesterday I was trembling giving her bath, afraid that I would do something wrong. And today she can protest against having bath or getting out from the bath tub :D 

That's Mommy and Fluffy :) Berat suda sekarang tu. Panat mo angkat. Haha!

Oh you don't know how many times I have been mad at her and vice versa. But no matter what, she'll always be my personal Fluffy :) No matter what. Always.

 

Watak-watak di atas adalah adik-adik saya. Bikin panas tapi I could never imagine life without them. The one in pink is the legendary Oja. Hoho! Tsk tsk tsk, dirty butt kan si Mengeng. (sila jangan bingung. Marie Anne=Mengeng=Fluffy=A'anne) I don't have a constant nickname for my family members. Constantly changing :D

And oh, she has started kindergarten already. Watch her facial expressions!

DAY 1 

In the first picture you can see that she looks excited kan. The next picture dia diam2 suda. We stayed with her for a while before heading back. Fortunately dia nda nangis. Sya pula nangis, pastu kena marah by my sisters. I didn't let A'anne see of course. Oh, it was hard for me to leave her at school. Sampai rumah, sya masih nangis lagi. Sot kan. But when we came to fetch her, she started crying. We were a few minutes late ba. Jam ba jalan depan school. I think she thought no one's going to fetch her. Kesian her. 

THE FOLLOWING DAYS

Cute kan dia? That pink teddy is her well-known 'Baby'. Wherever she goes, Baby HAS to follow. See how she's trying not to cry. Tapi dia nda mo senyum juga. There are also days when she really cried. Tidak mau pi school. Ikut ati kami kakak-kakak 3 orang ni, mau ja kasi biar di rumah. Tapi mana la buli macam tu kan. So kami hantar juga la. Stayed with her for a while just to give her the courage. Nasib tu cigu bagus. Cigu kami 8 orang adik beradik tu haha! The best kindergarten teacher ever, Cigu Aliah Lundong :)
NOWADAYS

During this time sya tiada suda di rumah, have to go back to Johor Bahru already. So I made it compulsary for my family members to send me her pics. I want to know how she's doing juga bogia. In the second pic, she's with her friend Eva which she pronounces Eeeeva (macam dalam wall-E). Yang first pic tu, her sida-sida fetching her from school. First pic; from the left : (Muchauskie, Fluffy and my Little Bits). Their school is very near to the kindergarten so on Fridays, they will come and fetch her. (Mon-Thurs dorang abis klas lambat). Syok ba juga jadi budak paling last ni kan, banyak tukang jaga :) So ini la sebab sya lambat balik UTM for 1 week tu ari. My eldest sister cuti panjang so dia no hal la. Cheli is studying in UMS so sya bawa la dia escape 1 minggu. Hoho! 

Dearest Fluffy, if one day you happen to come across this blog of mine (tapi sya rasa nanti zaman ko, no blogging2 suda. XD), I want you to be able to look back to your childhood days as memory filled with love from all of us. Because we all do love you so very much little one :)

Kakak Loves You :)

100 Questions, 100 Answers

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
   ..or compound channel methods. Use normal Manning's formula     

  where the values of A, P and... 

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?

   the end of my table :D

3. Before you started answering this question, what were you doing?
    Facebook-ing

4. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

    emm..kemboja putih while having lunch/dinner at the cafe

5. Without looking, guess what time it is

    9.00-ish

6. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

    9.01 :D not bad.

7. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

    Crickets :)

8. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

    Just now. Pigi class.

9. Did you dream last night?

    Yea, I think so. I've been having dreams these days. Must be the flu 

     -__-"

10. Do you remember your dreams?

     Nope

11. When did you last laugh?

     the night before last night :D

12. Do you remember why / at what?

     Was talking with my family. With them everything's funny :D

13. What is on the walls of the room you are in?

     Umm paint? wall 1=my door and locker. 

     wall 2=my extra large organizer(which I seldomly use). 

     wall 3=windows. 

     wall 4=notice board with my fave mementos :)

14. Seen anything weird lately?
     Oh yea. The world is going to be inhabited by freakazoids and weirdos.

     Be ready.

15. What do you think of this quiz?

     Long.

16. What is the last film you saw?

     Rango :) I prefer watching Johnny Depp act instead of just listening.

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

     The same place I was born, Borneo :)

18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

     Borneo.

19. Tell me something about you that most people don't know.

      I can be painfully shy at times :)

20. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or 

     politics, what would you do?

     End racism.

21. Do you like to dance?

     Like, yes. Dance well, not really.

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?

      Sure, sure. More experiences :)

23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams?

     Haha. Nope.

24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?

      My sister :D

25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?

      Emm Katy Perry's ET.

26. Last time you swam in a pool?

      Last month i think :)

27. Type of music you like most?

     I like songs with meaning/story behind the lyrics

28. Type of music you dislike most?
      Screamo 

29. Are you listening to music right now?

     Yep :)

30. What color is your bedroom carpet?

     No carpet. I don't like benda behabuk.

31. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?

     Emm, add a swimming pool I guess :P

32. What was the last thing you bought?

      Lunch/dinner

33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?

     I am proud to say, YES! :D

34. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?

     If I had the chance, definitely :)

35. Do you have a garden?

     Tiada. Mommy sya seja yang ada.

36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?

     Ei oskos.

37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?

      5 mins more, snooze.

38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?

     Ooh, the Pope :D Sya banyak question ni

39. Who sent the last text message you received?

      A friend in the JKM organization

40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

     No credit card. Debit seja ada. Somewhere real cheap and with quality so 

     that I can buy lots of stuff.

41. What time is bed time?

      Depends. Last year it was 3am, now it's usually 1 am-ish.

42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

     Haha! No no no, never.

43. How many tattoos do you have?

     0. clean and clear :D

44. If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one?

     Yea when I was a silly teen. But decided against it. Thank God.

45. What did you do for your last birthday?

      Last birthday? Oh, I was home :') Celebrated it with my family.

46. Do you carry a donor card?

     No. But I'd like one. How do you get one?

47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?

      Bika :D

48. Is the glass half empty or half full?

     Half full :)

49. What's the farthest-away place you've been?

      Korea. Back in 2006 :)

50. When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

     I never question where my vegs come from

51. Have you ever won a trophy?
     Oh banyak. Bikin semak rumah ja.

52. Are you a good cook?

     I'd like to think so :P

53. Do you know how to pump your own gas?

     Not really. The last time I did it was about 3 years ago :D

54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who    

     would it be?

      The father of physics :)

55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?

     11 years of uniforms :D

56. Do you touch-type?

     Partially :P

57. What's under your bed?

     Chace Crawford. Jealous, anyone? :P Seriously, just boxes.

58. Do you believe in love at first sight?
     Nope, not really. Sad kan?

59. Think fast, what do you like right now?

      Cars?

60. Where were you on Valentine's day?

      Class haha.

61. What time do you get up?

     1 hour before class :D

62. What was the name of your first pet?

      Eggy! My stray cat :) E is for Elisa, hence E is for Eggy :D 

63. Who is the second last person to call you?

      Fifie from church :)

64. Is there anything going on this weekend?

      Going to meet little kids :) Can't wait!

65. How are you feeling right now?

      Cold. *runny nose*

66. What do you think about the most?

     Nothing. Haha.

67. If you had the chance to date a star, who would it be?

     Neyo. Cause he seems to be the perfect gentleman :)

68. If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell 

      people?

     No need to tell.

69. Who would you tell first?

     Parents and grandma. Parents will be shocked because they don't gamble. Haha! Grandma would be proud of me because she's a hardcore 4D-er. :D

70. What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?

      Rango. Macam suda jawab ni.

71. Do you sing in the shower?

      Yes if there's no one else in the toilet.

72. What's your favourite colour?

      Baby blue, blue as the sky on a clear day :)

73. What do you do most when you are bored?

      Music. Read. Sleep. Movie.

74. What do you do for a living?

      Uhh, breathe? Haha. No job yet ba.

75. Do you love your job?

     As a student? Yes! :D

76. What did you want to be when you grew up?

      Doctor, fighter jet pilot, cashier (haha!), lawyer, nun (another haha!), doctor. I know I mentioned doctor twice. 

77. If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?

      Food taster? Haha!

78. Which came first the chicken or the egg?

      Which will hit you first? My sole or my palm?

79. How many keys on your key ring?

      One. I keep them separately for security reasons.

80. Where would you retire to?

      Nda tau. Rumah ko kali.

81. What kind of car do you drive?

      Make-believe car

82. What are your best physical features?

      My height. Haha! Senang cari boipren gia.

83. What are your best characteristics?

      Tou. Kuat makan kali :D

84. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?

      Somewhere cool and surrounded by nature

85. What kind of books do you like to read?

      Classic literature novels, facts and stuff..ooh magazines too. Comics included (some la).

86. What do you find attractive in the opposite gender?

      Small eyes. Very sexy. Haha!

87. What is your favorite time of the day?

      Dinner and bedtime :)

88. Where did you grow up?

      The land where the people are as beautiful as their hearts. Borneo, baby, Borneo :)

89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now?

      About 2 hour and 30 mins journey by plane :D

90. What are you reading now?

      Hydraulics in Civil and Environmental Engineering, etc.

91. Are you a morning person or a night owl?

      Depends. :D

92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

      Nope

93. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?

      Yes! :D

94. Do you have pets?

      None for now. I wanted a turtle but takut tiada orang jaga during the sem break.

95. How many rings before you answer the phone?

     Never bothered to count.

96. What is your best childhood memory?

     Kena pukul sebab mandi sama my pet puppy :D Haha!

97. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?

      Nannying my siblings. That's as far as it goes.

98. Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?

     Hmm. None for the moment.

99. What is most important in life?

      Love

100. What Inspires You?

       Simple kind deeds in everyday life :)

From A Friend, To A Friend

I know I'm supposed to blog about my family members but this issue just can't wait. Because I think it is important that I get this out.

People may think that life treats me good. I've been told so. And when people say that, I just smile. Because part of that may be true. You can say that as a kid, I've been sheltered from negative sides of the world. No, I know how and where babies come from ever since I was a little kid. So when my friends were still wondering where babies come from, I knew all the facts. My mom and dad explained it to us earlier on. I even know what sperm and ovum is. BUT, I didn't know how cruel humans can be. Umm, I think I'm going off the track already.

My point is, I may be sheltered from SOME of the negative sides of the world but not all of them. It can't be helped :) Life is life sweetheart.

I always try to find the positive side in everything because that's just who I am. I guess I inherited it from my Dad :D But it doesn't mean I'm never feeling down. It definitely doesn't mean that my heart was never broken. It doesn't mean that tears were never shed.

I trusted and was betrayed. I hoped and was let down. I loved and was hurt real bad. 

There were times when I cried myself to sleep at night, nearly suffocated by my own 'hingus' just to wake up the next morning and relive the same heart-wrenching pain. I had to put up a front and pretend to be strong for the people around me when I felt like I could die from the pain.

No one can shelter me from that pain, no matter how much they care for me. Neither can I shelter you, my friend. 

Everyone has crosses they have to bear. It may be in different forms but it's a cross all the same. And sometimes a friend can come around to help you with the weight of your cross (remember Simon of Cyrene?). So it's no shame to ask for help in this hard times, just like Jesus got his help from St. Simon. But there are also times when you have to continue the journey alone. That doesn't mean that the whole world is ignoring your pain. On Jesus' way up to Mount Calvary, while some people were making fun of him telling that he deserved his punishment, many others were crying for him and were ready to wipe off his sweat (remember St. Veronica?). And sometimes you might fall under the weight of the cross because it's just too heavy to carry and you don't have the energy to carry on. That's okay :) He fell too (3 times kalau nda silap). 

I know some cynics will say, "Jadi apa la Dia dapat lepas dia angkat semua tu? Kana salip juga kan? Hidup pun macam tu la, lepas ko susah-susah ko nda dapat apa-apa juga tu. Kena hina adala." 

Ya la, sometimes sya punya view on life pun pandai jadi cynical ba. Urang kan, biasala. But in times like this, look for the greater purpose. It's because of His death that you and I have the opportunity to dream of entering Heaven. Kalau nda, ba kirim salam seja la sama Heaven. Taapun bilang orang tua Kadazandusun. I try to apply the same principle in life. TRY sya bilang tu. Ko pikir senang ka mo ikut Jesus punya footstep? Maybe I can't die and save all souls, but but but in every difficulty I face I try to pull through (even if it means dragging my cross) I try to make it a living testimony of God's super awesome grace :) I'm not always successful with that though! Haha! Sebab my anger/impatience/kegeraman gets the best of me.

In every thing you do, hope for the best. Never ever stop hoping. Because besides love, hope is one of the best thing that you can give and receive :) I realize that in hoping you put yourself in risk of getting hurt. Tapi there's also hope that the best thing in life might happen to you kan? It's 50/50 chance la..hihi. Ba if you hope and nda dapat, move on and hope and strive for something else. Nda dapat juga? Move on, tingkatkan usaha and keep hoping. Hope keeps you alive, it really does. And that is why I would never lower my expectations. But in hoping, be logical juga la aa :D

God loves you. Even with your broken heart. Just like God loves me, even with my patched up heart :)

This will pass and make you stronger. I know right now you won't be able to see that. Because the hardest about friendship is letting go and moving on. But you will make it, I am sure of it :) 

Take it slow, it only takes one step a day :) We are always around to wipe the hingus. You just gotta let us know.