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Hoho. It's been a quite some time since I posted anything. I've been pretty busy these past few weeks. Guess what I've been doing? DANCINGGGG!! Oh man, I can't explain just how happy I was doing what I like :) It's been a long time since I stopped dancing. This time we (my team) danced for UTM's Convo Fest. I know it's not much but all the same, it made me happy. I don't mind sweating if I am dancing. The final outcome wasn't bad considering that we only practiced for a week. And I'm glad that I remembered every single step :) Oh oh sungguh bahagia!

For the 1st week in JB I was feeling pretty down because of so many many things. And I thank God that for every storm cloud in my life there's always a silver lining. I thank God for the speedy recovery of my little pet back home. Thank You for sparing a life. Thank You for listening to my desperate call. Thank You for giving me the opportunity to actually know how to pray the Holy Rosary with all my heart. 

There's still so many things that I am struggling through right now but o I am so grateful for so many things :)

Today I went to UTM's PC Fair. Pretty good stuff. Real cheap too. Sya mo pi bili tu external 1 Tera namun sya fikir 15 kali, in the end I decided I don't have any immediate use of it. Ngeh.

I bought a cooler pad (RM 20), a mouse (RM 16) and get this, SONY earphones for only (RM 29). Hoho! Murah bebeh! I must show you my mouse (which is a fish)! The mousey fish/ fishey mouse is so cute it makes me smile :) 

kan kan kan? cumil tahap menggelupur kan? :D

see how happy she is? :)

Look how happy it looks with its eyes lit up. There's even a 'garisan mata yang sedang senyum'. I have to think of a suitable name for her (memo to myself). It reminds me of Cheli's mouse which is a mouse. Comel~

I miss the people back home so much. I know they are going through a lot right now. I want to be there for my parents, my siblings.. I know how my parents must be putting a tough front but inside they're as scared as me. Lord, take the wheel. 

My younger siblings are growing up so fast nowadays. They're really maturing. I suddenly want to take over the things which I used to detest doing for them back when I was home. Like ironing their clothes, nagging them to do their revision/homework.. Why? No idea. Maybe I am just not ready for them to grow up even though the 4 months I was home, I was trying to make them to handle their own stuff and be responsible. Aie, maybe this is the curse of being an elder sister. Hnnh.

Cheli took a random video of my youngest sister munching cereal on my Satio the other day and now, I keep playing it back when I miss them :'( mumumu. 

Mommy, Daddy I am doing as fabulous as always..don't worry kio :) Sya minta puji seja ba ni XD  

Ba good night, bisuk klas awal.

Menikmati Keindahan Ciptaan Tuhan XD

Hohoho, memandangkan sya di UTM suda makanya sya perlulah mencari sesuatu to look forward to. Mengapa? (Hoho lama sya tidak guna BM) Sebab sya suka/perlu 'memotivasikan' diri. Anu ni, susa sya mo type o. Sya rasa weird pelik blogging in BM. Stuck otak sya.

Back to the point. I motivate myself because sometimes when life gets hard, I find it hard to smile from the heart. I find it hard to be a good listener when I am not at peace inside. I also find it hard to stay strong. And this is where my 'motivators'/muse comes into picture. Hoho. *guling-guling*

I laugh a lot. I laugh when I feel awkward, I laugh when I am tired, I laugh when I am sick, I laugh when I am nervous, I laugh when someone cracks a joke (especially if the joke tidak jadi ahaha!), I laugh when I don't know what to say or how to respond etc. Well you get my point.

But the laughter has a source and it needs constant recharging. And yes, I recharge my laughter via my muse. Hoho! And these muses are usually good looking boys with queer but interesting personalities. AHAHA! Teruk o sya kan. Malu sya mo mengaku o. XD 

You know when times get hard and sya rasa macam buruk betul life sya di Johor, I look at them/him and I smile inside and outside. Terus sya rasa macam di awang-awangan ni. Haha! When the day has been treating me roughly and it feels like everything is wrong, it's natural for me to feel down. If I happen to meet one of my muses by chance during those horrid days, it'll somehow make me feel better instantly because it makes me feel kinda like eventhough everything is not working out, at least they/he are/is still as awesome as ever. Aiya, hard to explain la. Tapi memang begitu la. It's like eventhough everything is wrong, at least there's still something right  and has remained perfect. So it makes me feel better. 

It's harder for me to remain optimistic now that I am far away from home because sometimes the pessimism around and in me is so overwhelming. So this is how I prevent myself screaming from every other people who may rile me. Hoho! Terima kasih muse ku. Semoga you remain as handsome as ever and may your personality remain as cute as pink cupcakes. :) I'd like to thank you in person but it would make things awkward. I'll always include you in my prayers though :)

Akhir kata, sekiranya anda merasakan seperti kepala anda seperti sudah mahu meletup atau kemurungan mula menguasai diri anda, maka carilah ensomboi yang berperwatakan mulia dan tinguklah dia. Nescaya anda akan sentiasa bahagia. 

And to lessen my parents worries and to lessen the burden on their ever-challenged sanity(haha!) I'd like to add, praying+muse is more effective :)

Super Senior :D

I just ended my blissful holidays on the 12th. Oh how I wished it was longer. Buhuhu. I didn't manage to complete the two things that I planned to do during the holidays. But yea, it's always a give and take (pujuk diri). Aii, having long holidays is really fun and wonderful except for one thing - the arrival of a new semester. Know why? Because it's harder for me to adapt. I've been living, eating, sleeping, bathing, enjoying life happily for FREE for the last 4 months. And since there's a superb cook at home, life was really good XD 

But now, I have to plan my spending (which I really stink at). How much rice I take can mean a rise or reduction of RM 1 in my daily spendings. Who knew rice can have this much power. Hoho! I now have to don the 'responsible grown up' sash. Actually life here isn't as hard as I paint it to be. It's pretty easy. All I have to do is to take care of myself, make sure my clothes and my side of the room is clean (O! I opted to stay in a double room this semester, so I have a roommate) - basically all I have to do is take care of myself while studying. In fact, the government is paying me to study. But when it comes to planning my expenses, I stink. Momma said I have to cut down on brand name goods (cikai-cikai only most of my stuff ba). My sister said I have to cut down on brand name foods (makan kedai mamak la everyday this). I think they're right. XD Nanti sya try la kio.

O and, I am a third year student now. I feel super old. That's because I am a super senior. 

1st year - Freshie

2nd year - Senior

3rd year - SUPER SENIOR

4th year - antique, museum-worthy

I am quite excited (and a little petrified maybe?) about this semester's subjects. I've already met 2 of my lecturers and they seem okay. I hope the same with my other subjects.

O hari ni sya salah masuk kelas. Relaks lagi tu tengok orang lain. Cis, jatuh saham. 

Anyhow the beginning of this semester is treating me fine. My roommate is someone I can live with, vice versa. Bought my first book for this semester, nasib RM 25 only. I have to buy RM 75 worth of books and module for the other subject. I don't know how much I would be spending on the other subjects.

Oh Bendahari UTM, tolongla buat kerja cepat sikit. Panat sya mo bubut ko every sem. 

I miss home. Yes, I said it. I miss home. Thinking how my little sister's first UPSR paper went, how's the fever  of the little pet, whether everything's fine at home.. 

I got to go. I have to battle my way through the piles of clothing in the laundry room to wash my clothes. :D

And with that, I'll end my post by saying...

I miss the washing machine back home.