Hohoho, memandangkan sya di UTM suda makanya sya perlulah mencari sesuatu to look forward to. Mengapa? (Hoho lama sya tidak guna BM) Sebab sya suka/perlu 'memotivasikan' diri. Anu ni, susa sya mo type o. Sya rasa weird pelik blogging in BM. Stuck otak sya.
Back to the point. I motivate myself because sometimes when life gets hard, I find it hard to smile from the heart. I find it hard to be a good listener when I am not at peace inside. I also find it hard to stay strong. And this is where my 'motivators'/muse comes into picture. Hoho. *guling-guling*
I laugh a lot. I laugh when I feel awkward, I laugh when I am tired, I laugh when I am sick, I laugh when I am nervous, I laugh when someone cracks a joke (especially if the joke tidak jadi ahaha!), I laugh when I don't know what to say or how to respond etc. Well you get my point.
But the laughter has a source and it needs constant recharging. And yes, I recharge my laughter via my muse. Hoho! And these muses are usually good looking boys with queer but interesting personalities. AHAHA! Teruk o sya kan. Malu sya mo mengaku o. XD
You know when times get hard and sya rasa macam buruk betul life sya di Johor, I look at them/him and I smile inside and outside. Terus sya rasa macam di awang-awangan ni. Haha! When the day has been treating me roughly and it feels like everything is wrong, it's natural for me to feel down. If I happen to meet one of my muses by chance during those horrid days, it'll somehow make me feel better instantly because it makes me feel kinda like eventhough everything is not working out, at least they/he are/is still as awesome as ever. Aiya, hard to explain la. Tapi memang begitu la. It's like eventhough everything is wrong, at least there's still something right and has remained perfect. So it makes me feel better.
It's harder for me to remain optimistic now that I am far away from home because sometimes the pessimism around and in me is so overwhelming. So this is how I prevent myself screaming from every other people who may rile me. Hoho! Terima kasih muse ku. Semoga you remain as handsome as ever and may your personality remain as cute as pink cupcakes. :) I'd like to thank you in person but it would make things awkward. I'll always include you in my prayers though :)
Akhir kata, sekiranya anda merasakan seperti kepala anda seperti sudah mahu meletup atau kemurungan mula menguasai diri anda, maka carilah ensomboi yang berperwatakan mulia dan tinguklah dia. Nescaya anda akan sentiasa bahagia.
And to lessen my parents worries and to lessen the burden on their ever-challenged sanity(haha!) I'd like to add, praying+muse is more effective :)
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