Life has been treating me pretty good these days. But of course, me being me, being bugged by a queasy feeling is a norm. Ugh. It's starting again. Yea right, like it did ever end. You know, I hate it when I see/hear/watch someone trying to be someone else.
And I ultimately hate it when the person being copied is me. Yea, I know this sounds so self-righteous but I know what I am talking about. I hate being asked for advises on stuff just to see how I would handle the problem and later my idea/advises will be used in a way that makes it seem that it was their idea all the way. I hate it. I really do. I know hate is a strong word, but that's what I feel. It's a very very strong dislike. I don't hate the person, I just hate the action. There's a clear difference there.
I really don't like it. I know I should be proud because someone thinks me worthy of being copied. I know that. But I don't feel proud even one bit. I'm tired of it. Disgusted even.
My family talked to me about this and as they advised, I should just let it go. But I am tired of it. Grr!
*sigh* I just don't like it ba. Malas sya. Rimas. I can tolerate most stuff except lies. Especially lies that are being told in my face.
*heavy sigh* Maybe my Momma and Daddy and the other creatures at home are right. I should be proud kan? Haih. Instead of complaining like this, I better make sure that I am always in my best behaviour so that I can be a good role model. Kan? God please help me in this. I really need Your guiding hand and a little peace.
Next time it happens, I'll just remember my favourite monster when I asked her what she wanted to be when she's all grown up.
" Fluff, what do you want to be when you grow up?"
"I want to be like Lisha"
:) Surprisingly I never did get angry/irritated when Fluffy said she wanted to be me. I think I'll handle this current situation this way.
I think I'll just leave it in God's hand. We never know what miracles He's trying to show through us kan? :) Okay, I'm feeling much better already X) *breathing out*
Gtg! I've got a class to attend.
O and yea, this is me ;) Bagaya, grumpy elisa.
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