Random

Okay, if you noticed this is the first holidays which I didn't post anything about going back to Penampang :) That's because I spent my 1 week of holidays in Johor. I don't really mind because I've been pretty busy.

I attended the GIFT Family Outing from the 6th to the 7th. FUN! :D I realised that I've been missing out a lot but I don't regret my decision of spending my first 2 years centered mainly by academic and 'university-ish' activities. Because it just means that I get to bring something different to GIFT's table. :)

And now I am busy with the preparation of my department's Catholic Renewal Seminar this weekend. The participation is pretty bleak. But well, as Deacon Adrian said, it's not about me or you. It's about the Holy Spirit :) Amen to that. Still, I am pretty worried. I am worried that my coordinator is burdened by this. I try to lessen it. And I am also worried about not being able to settle my assignments before the holiday ends. Hnnh. God, You take the wheel. So yea, I am pretty busy but I am very happy and satisfied. It has been a very productive semester so far (thank God!). 

I'd be receiving the Sacrament of Reconciliation tomorrow later on. I have to prepare for that too. God help us to make a proper confession.

And later on, we'd be having a fundraising event. But I don't think I would be able to help the first round. I think I NEED to go home. I have a feeling that they need us 3 (Wawa, Cheli and I).

I want to fix things that desperately need to be fixed. I have to. *sigh* 

Lord, You alone know how heavy this is. Why is it that the more we try to seek You, the more my family falls apart? I am not giving up on You yet, I know You are full of surprises. 

The cross You put on my shoulders is so heavy dear Lord that sometimes I just break down because I can't see You in the pain I am going through. I just can't see You sometimes. 

Still, I thank You for the Simon of Cyrenes You gave me. You know I'd be crushed under the weight of the cross if I stood alone. Thank You Lord for my sisters and my younger siblings who have been so understanding.

Lord I pray that after we've pulled through this, the wounds will be healed. All of it.

Thank You Lord for the strength You gave me to be able to stay sane and for all the beautiful creations around me that puts a smile on my face no matter what.

I pray Lord, that my family will pull through this. You really gotta help us Lord. Help us.